Growing pains are an unfortunate part of life, aren’t they? It sucks that we still feel them, the mental ones, well into adulthood. The first step to healing ourselves, especially our minds, is accepting that we have a problem. You know that you are your own harshest critic, and you have taken steps towards being kinder to yourself. That, in and of itself, is amazing. I have been there, done that, got the entire wardrobe. I don’t have issues my friend, I have subscriptions!
For me, studying Stoicism changed the way I view myself and the world around me. I looked for acceptance in ALL the wrong places for so long. Perfection in myself, but accepted meh whatever in others. I too would talk to myself in ways I would absolutely NEVER talk to someone else.
I still have my moments. I am not perfect. Not by a long shot. But I find those moments to be fewer and farther between. And I am OK with that.
Thank you for sharing, as always.