I found that once my body started failing me, what I thought about changed drastically as well. At first, they were not good thoughts. It was similar to what you said when you first found out you needed the surgery. Unfortunately, no surgery will take care of all the health issues I have. I live in a body that fights itself daily. And it took me a very long time to get my mind to stop fighting me, negatively, as well. I may not always be able to run around and play with little ones, or go on a jog, or even walk up a flight of stairs; but I am here, I am humble, and I have a lot to offer. I can’t control what my body is doing, but I can, to a degree, control what my mind does about it. Thank you as always for sharing.