I was going to ask if you’re taking Anything because when I was on Abilify years ago, how you describe you’re feeling is what it made me feel like. It was awful. Maybe if I didn’t Know I should have been feeling things it would have been different. But it was like I was outside myself watching.
I think you’re onto something with the years of drug use. Maybe your brain needs a reset somehow.
Love ya man. I think about you all the time and I truly hope things get better. You deserve the best.