It is never, ever, too late.
And you had EVERY right to feel how you did. Please do not belittle your feelings because of your circumstances. Being privileged in some ways does not mean you can’t feel a certain way. Our mental health is not a condition of our place in society.
My father was one of the most mentally unwell people I’ve ever known. And he was wealthy. Money doesn’t fix problems of the mind, unfortunately.
I love you dearly, my friend. I’m glad you want to live. I’m blessed to know you. ❤