Louise — thank you so much for your thoughtful response. I know that had to be difficult.

The crowds, depending on what is going on, I can make myself handle. People who have known me a long time have a hard time understanding that I have agoraphobia and major anxiety. I was in theatre for years when I was younger, I can appear to be a social butterfly, I have attended rock festivals with 30k plus other people surrounding me.

But some of those things are things I love and refuse to allow my anxiety to crush.

Then there are things such as driving. About ten years ago, all of a sudden, driving over a bridge became impossible. I would freeze, have a panic attack, feel as if I was having a heart attack, start sweating, shortness of breath.

It’s kind of hard to sit through that when you’re having to actively drive lol

I live in a place where, in order to get to the next big town, there’s a huge bridge to cross. No choice, you have to go over one of two bridges to get there. On top of that, it’s a fucking drawbridge. So, you might get stuck sitting on one side of it, which just increases my panic. Overpasses cause the same panic.

It sucks, to say the least.

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