When Perceived Failures Keep You From Being Creative

NaNoWriMo has intimidated me for years. I’m the person who immediately becomes anxious when given a deadline, even if it’s something I can easily accomplish. I don’t do well with failure, so if there’s any chance I will fail at all, I rarely do it. Whatever it is.

Apparently this doesn’t apply to marriage, as I’m on my fourth.

Being honest, failed marriages, a failed relationship with my mother, and various other perceived failures throughout my life are part and parcel of why I have such a hard time with a lot of things. The keywords in that statement are ‘perceived failures’, which is what I work hard to get over daily.

With anything we set out to accomplish, there’s always a chance we won’t finish. Things happen. Life gets in the way, emergencies crop up, or we just don’t have enough time. And there’s nothing wrong with that. We have to learn to give ourselves grace in situations, instead of constantly beating ourselves up for what we perceive as failures.

I’ve taken part in NaNoWriMo six times.

I’ve never technically finished, according to their rules. This year, I will finish, as in I will post 50,000 words. It will not be a novel, so in reality, I won’t win. But this year, I will be a Nano Rebel.

I’m planning to do this in two ways.

Shaunta Grimes, the orginal Ninja Writer, has proposed this plan:

I’ve printed her PDF she graciously provided and intend to work this plan for the month of November. In another post, she also mentions being a Nano Rebel and uploading everything you write in November.

Emails, Tweets, notes to yourself. Anything you write, place it in a document. Everything you post here or on another blog. If you write it, put it in a document. Upload it all.

I think you’ll be surprised at the number of words you write in a month.

Growing my business as a full-time writer is my number one priority each and every day. Will I become the next Shannon Ashley, Shaunta Grimes, Emma Austin, Yael Wolfe, or any other amazing writer I respect here?

Maybe not.

But I don’t need to. They are pretty amazing at being who they are, and when I’m honest with myself, I’m just as amazing at being me.

I just have to continue to work on letting you all see that, and I’ll do just fine.

My other project for the month of November is completing a poetry chapbook. The lovely Juliette van der Molen has started this project as a Nano Rebel, and I’m on board. I love poetry and spent most of my early teen years composing horrible pieces about love and loss. They even published me a few times.

The goal is to create one poem, of any type, per day for the month of November. If you’re playing along, and are on Twitter, she’s created a hashtag for this, #ChapbookChallenge

I’m excited to work on this business of writing. It’s what I do every day, whether it’s work or play. I love what I do, and I want to do well, be better. If I perceive failure along the way, I want to take what I learn from that, and turn it into something teachable, instead of quitting.

This new publication will chronicle what I accomplish in November, and beyond. I want to write more about writing and what it means to make this a business. I hope you’ll enjoy what I have to say.

Will you be taking part in NaNoWriMo in some form this year? If so, I’m ccuthbertauthor there, I would love if you followed along.

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